MetalFan200

It's been so long since I've been active on DeviantArt. I apoligize for that, but it's due to the fact that I have to deal with a lot of shit in my life right now.

School's not going so well,
I'm in the middle of a BIG mental depression,
Old trauma's of the past got back up,
I have depression/panic attacks all the time
And every night I have nightmares..

I'm tired, physically as mentally. I've made new art and a blogging page on facebook (for those who are, or might be interested, I'll add a link soon).

I also became Uncle on the 23st of February, 2013. It's a baby girl named Victoria and we all love her already.

I think I'll be more online here again now I have the time and shit.
So i just wanted to say..
I'M BACK AND ALL FIRED UP~

[I do warn for the upcoming contain of the Deviants and Journals I might add on my page later on, since not everything is so happy due to my depression..]

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Ohw.. didn't you know?

IT'S MY FREAKIN' B-DAY TODAAAAYYYY~!!! ≥.≤

My mother told me yesterday after school that my favorite grandma have dead. We were both in tears ofcourse. Appereantly, her heart just stopped. She became pale and my grandpa knew that she's be gone. He had seen it coming for a the past couple of years, her health was going worse in a rapid speed.

Because my grandparents life in Spain for a couple of years now, her body is getting cremated in Spain. Almost my entire family goes there, today they'll leave, but they'll leave without me. Because my grandma was very close to me, it's unbarable for me to stay there near the house she lifed and dead in for a couple of days. I want to remember her when she was still alive and healthy, not dead, cold, pale as a sheet in a coffin and afterwards getting burned to ashes...
My folks will try to get ashes back to me, so I can say goodbye in my own way and keep some of the ashes with me in name of her existence.

I'm greatfull that my fiancé is staying over at my place for a couple of days to support me. Also, our best friend Taisa and another friend are dropping by. My family will return at sunday.
I just hope that my grandad and the rest of my family understands why I'm not going along ... and that they won't start to hate me or something.. T^T

Also! Because I need the distraction~

Taisa and I are going to record an Q&A with Edward and Roy, at my place, BUT!! we need questions.. SO! If you guys have anything in mind for a good personal, work-ish or what so ever question, post them in a comment, so we'll have a good start to begin the Q&A ..

Thank you very much..